It's between you and God

Hari ini gw sedih dan kecewa banget sama hidup gw. Dalam perjalanan hidup gw, gw selalu berusaha buat bae sama orang, walopun akhirnya sering dibilang"terlalu bae". Akhirnya seringkali gw yang sedih sendiri, saat orang yang udah dibelain malah berbalik ngomong yang nyakitin hati gw. Orang pikir gw gpp karena ga liat kesedihan gw. Kadang gw cuma bisa telen semua kekecewaan gw, nangis buat diri gw ndiri. Gw cape, kadang gw pengen give up. Buat apa gw berjuang buat orang ato ngebela2in buat orang, yang pada ujung2nya mereka hanya menuntut gw untuk menjadi seperti yg mereka mau dan sama sekali ga ada penghargaan buat apa yang udah gw korbanin dan belain...
Gw sedih hari ini...bener2 sedih.
Tapi Tuhan selalu kasih malaikat di sekeliling gw, gw dapet dari one of my friends, satu quote dari Mother Theresa,bagus bgt buat gw dan gw terharu bacanya....

You and God People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies; Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you; Be honest and sincere anyway. What you spend years creating others could destroy overnight; Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway. Give the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway. Mother Teresa

Gw nangis...yeah...gw memang sentimentil, tapi gw percaya pada akhirnya semua hanya antara kita dan Bapa...

A Note for My Dearest Son....

Dear Chris,
Do u know how much I miss you? I miss u every single day. It's the hardest thing that I've ever done, to be apart from you. I'm always happy to see your smile. Pop always sends me a pic of you. Sometimes u r smiling, laughing, messing things, crying...owhh I saw all those stuffs. No matter what, I know you're fine and you're always a perfect boy for me. Mommy always pray for you. Mommy know that Jesus and His angels always take a good care of you. Boy, Mommy heard that you've learned how to pray. I'm so glad to hear that. Don't forget to show your gratitude to Pop. He's the one who always take a good care of you while I'm not there with you. He's so wonderful. Mommy know this is the hardest time for each of us, but let's keep the dream alive. Mom, Pop and You. We're struggling together and Lord Jesus blesses every single good thing for us. This is your first Easter as a boy, and Mommy is not around, but I wanna let you know, You're always on the top of my pray list :) Jesus Promised me that we'll have many Easters as a family. Happy Easter!!!!

Lots of hugs and kissess for my dearest boy, Christopher